I am still not over you. I don't think I will ever get over you. What we had was real and everyone who saw us together could tell that. I guess we grew apart though. The distance made it impossible to touch you when I needed to the most and when I needed you to hold me, there was no way that you could. I loved you, with every bit of my heart. From the roots of my hair to the tips of my toes. I loved you so much it hurt sometimes, but in that really good way, you know? We laughed together, we cried together, we discovered each other and love and all the greatness that goes along with it together and when I was near you, close to you, I felt like I could take on the world. No obstacle was too great and I was the luckiest girl in the universe. When times were tough and it felt like I could walk no further, the sound of your heartbeat gave me strength and warmth in the coldest conditions. When you looked into my eyes, my skin was ablaze, my heart racing, and my pulse thudding. You brought something out in me that no one, not even me, knew was there. Maybe, someday, we can have that again. They say you never forget your first love and I can assure you, baby, it's true. I'll never forget you and I'll always need you somehow.
Love, Kaitlin
- Mood:
thoughtful
I fumble my keys and drop them twice before successfully opening the door. I slip inside following closely behind her, making sure she dosen't get too far. The door shuts closed and her arms snake around my neck to give me a light kiss, then a deeper one. My response is more than a little appreciative as I inch us closer to the staris. Still entwined, our tongues touch slightly stirring my insides and boiling my skin in an instant. She pulls back slightly and I move to her neck.
"And your parents are gone for the whole weekend, right?" She says shakily between breaths.
I only moan a yes and tackle her mouth once again. We slowly make our way upstairs, not paying attention to the carpet and tripping occassionally. The bed sinks underneath our combined weight as we lie down softly. There is no noise. No words to utter. No thoughts to think. Just me and her. The kiss breaks sooner than I would have liked but I smile at her gratefully as she combs her fingers through my hair unraveling the parts I had put time into holding up. Just this moment seems like electricity. Just our bodies touching is enough in this minute.
Her lips find my ear. Warm breath invades my hearing and the most I can do is listen. I soak in every word like its necessary for breathing. She abandons my ear and runs her nose gently over my jaw, my eyes and over my own nose. Even this is enough. I smile back at her, leaning forward to plant another kiss upon those smooth even lips. They curve into a small smile before opening allowing my presence. This time the touch isn’t ever so slight. My mouth blankets hers and we go into our own world. My tongue coats hers moving in a natural rhythm. My hands clutch the fabric of her dress and I cant help but peel it further up her hips. Her skin blazes underneath my touch as I continue working my lips into hers creating a dominating effect. She squeezes me tightly against her, hearts pounding chests with every taste and every play of my tongue.
I have more. Don't feel like posting now. But, whose reading this anyway?
- Mood:
bouncy
Now, I'm going to go train with my Dad some more. Reflex work.
- Mood:
drained
Dear E,
You were my friend. N introduced us and we clicked instantly. Although you were older, I knew that I could always come to you for advice. We hung out a lot and you never made me feel like I was younger, you always made it equal. I accepted you for who you were and you (for sure) accepted me for who I was. Well, when I found out that you were experimenting with girls, I couldn't believe it. I mean, you had always sent out that vibe to me (and Lord knows everyone else) but you had been with so many guys, I just thought it was a thing. When C hurt you the way she did, I was furious. I wanted to kick her ass. Take her down to China Town, know what I mean? And then when we started dating, it was good for a while. Comfortable, nice. But after a while I started to resent you. You got SO annoying. You were just always there. Half the things you said made me want to punch you in your face and everything you did made me want to kick something. Hard. I know that sounds bad but it was what I was feeling. I know we can never be friends like we were and I don't want to be, but I hope we won't be walking on eggshells around one another.
Love, Kaitlin.
Ps. The fact that you ran screaming down the mall the other day when you saw me was really childish and it just solidified in my mind that our breakup was one of the best things that ever happened to me.
- Mood:
peaceful
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